There are a number of versions of this song I’ve heard. The words never change, though the state of Rich’s life in each is obviously different. The aching in his voice moves to different lines. You can hear his eagerness in earlier versions, and his weariness in later version. I love every version of this song. The one on this album, self titled Rich Mullins (1986), is in the early-middle of his career. He’s ready to go, but not as beat up as he will be in later versions.
Of all the songs I’ve ever heard in my life, this is by far the one I’ve found reaches the deepest parts of who I am. It lays me out on the table with nothing left to hide. So many thoughts were floating around in my heart and mind, and when I heard Elijah… they all came together. This IS my song. If I should have a funeral someday, I hope this song is played.
This life has been filled with so many good things from God! But I’ve ignored so many of them, and let them pass me by. I would often grab onto the garbage and hold on tight. It was nasty, disgusting, and fit for the trash. It wreaked havoc on who I was and left me eager to be rid of it.
As much as I love the flood of goodness that He surrounds us with, I long for the day when I say goodbye to this world we’ve corrupted. It’s not that I’m excited about death, I’d skip that step if I could. I just want to be in the place where I can never leave a stain again. A place where nobody around me will seek to destroy Christ’s work. A place where all manner of things shall be well.
The thought of Elijah blasting out of here on a chariot of fire is one I’ll never get out of my head. The flames devouring the chains that held him here, and the bucking of those steeds… so eager to go home. What a ride that must have been!
I’m ready to go. I hope with all my heart to see my wife and daughter on the other side. But if I don’t have Him, then I have nothing. I want to be with Him!
Here’s a later version of the song…
Elijah- Rich Mullins (Rich Mullins- 1986)
The Jordan is waiting for me to cross through
My heart is aging I can tell
So Lord, I’m begging for one last favor from You
Here’s my heart take it where You will
This life has shown me how we’re mended and how we’re torn
How it’s okay to be lonely as long as you’re free
Sometimes my ground was stoney
And sometimes covered up with thorns
And only You could make it what it had to be
And now that it’s done
Well if they dressed me like a pauper
Or if they dined me like a prince
If they lay me with my fathers
Or if my ashes scatter on the wind
I don’t care
But when I leave I want to go out like Elijah
With a whirlwind to fuel my chariot of fire
And when I look back on the stars
It’ll be like a candlelight in Central Park
And it won’t break my heart to say goodbye
There’s people been friendly, but they’d never be your friends
Sometimes this has bent me to the ground
Now that this is all ending
I want to hear some music once again
‘Cause it’s the finest thing that I have ever found
But the Jordan is waiting
Though I ain’t never seen the other side
Still they say you can’t take in the things you have here
So on the road to salvation
I stick out my thumb and He gives me a ride
And His music is already falling on my ears
There’s people been talking
They say they’re worried about my soul
Well, I’m here to tell you I’ll keep rocking
‘Til I’m sure it’s my time to roll
And when I do
When I leave I want to go out like Elijah
With a whirlwind to fuel my chariot of fire
And when I look back on the stars
It’ll be like a candlelight in Central Park
And it won’t break my heart to say goodbye
‘Cause when I leave I want to go out like Elijah
With a whirlwind to fuel my chariot of fire
And when I look back on the stars
It’ll be like a candlelight in Central Park
And it won’t break my heart to say goodbye